Day 4: That Devil

Well, this is Day 2 of my juice cleanse, and it started out really rough.  I woke up with a major headache that lasted a good part of the day.  It was one of those headaches that almost debilitates you.  I somehow managed to get through a meeting and a 5 hr. tutoring session and host bible study at our house.  Don't ask me how.  It's like when you don't remember driving some place, but you know you did because you are there.  Anyway, while I was in the middle of this incredibly painful headache, I started feeling sorry for myself and questioning why I was doing this cleanse in the first place.  I started going back and forth between all the reasons I should give up the cleanse and all the reasons I should march on.  I felt like I was experiencing spiritual warfare over my three-day juice cleanse.  And that got me thinking about a sermon I heard at CLASH camp last week.  The speaker was saying how we like to blame the devil for everything, even things that just happen.  For instance, being stuck in traffic or failing a test we didn't study for or having a child misbehave.  We just say, it's the devil when something doesn't go our way or we don't want to take responsibility for it.  I was feeling a little that way this afternoon when my monster-sized headache was obviously depleting my judgment.  I was looking for someone or something to blame my headache on, and I was looking for Josh to feel sorry for me.  When I asked him why he wasn't more concerned about me, he just shrugged and told me I had brought it on myself by choosing to do the juice cleanse.  Hello! How many times do we look for someone to feel sorry for us for the things we have brought on ourselves? Ouch.  Today, it might have been something as silly as a headache from a juice cleanse, but there have been times in my life where the consequences have been much greater and instead of owning up to them and correcting them, I have thrown my own little pity party and done my own share of blaming the devil.  Well, today I shut down my little pity party and thankfully, my headache subsided, and as of now, the juice cleanse is still underway.  One more day...