Yesterday started another school year for me, the LAST school year!!! I cannot in words convey the full extent of my excitement. If you know me, you know that I love school. Well, gosh, I must, since I've been in school for the last 22 years! But now I can say without reservation that I am ready to be done. School for me is over forever. I am usually not this decided about anything. Just ask my family and friends. I tend to be very wishy washy and shy away from making decisions. But I have officially decided that Ashley Hawk will not be enrolling in any type of school ever again!
I think one of the reasons that God placed me on the path of law school is so I would finally be ready to close that chapter of my life- being a student. Law school has been nothing like the rest of the my school experience. Yes, there is the occasional joy of learning something new, but for the most part it is intense and draining and hard to enjoy due to the sheer amount of work. So, therefore I am done as of May 12, 2012! There are some things about being in school that I will miss like the excitement of buying school supplies or Spring Break or having a flexible schedule, but that's why you have kids, right?
I tried to explain it to someone the other day that being in graduate school is like being in a holding pattern. You really want to land the plane, but you can't. I feel that my life in a way has been on hold for the past 5 years, and I am so ready to land the plane! While I am so grateful for the privilege and opportunity to go to graduate school and now law school, and I know that my law degree is necessary for me to fulfill my calling, I can't help but wonder if remaining in school has been my way of avoiding the future, of hanging onto the known so I don't have to venture into the unknown. But I am now happy to say that I have matured and am ready to face life full on, full of its challenges and trials. I am ready to break my holding pattern and land the plane. Some people reach this point in their life far earlier than I have and for that, they are fortunate, but I hold no regrets because this is my life and this is my journey!
So, to the LAST year of school, "Welcome, I've been waiting for you!"
