We all need to take a little time for ourselves every once in awhile, to sit back and relax and to recover our sanity. It's nice to escape from the busy monotony of what can become our lives. I LOVE taking a time out and escaping into the pages of a good book or onto the screens of my favorite TV shows, but I have recently been confronted with the realization that what started as much needed breaks in the midst of my busy weeks has turned into a longer, more permanent vacation. I realized that I spend more time escaping my life then actually living it. Wow! That kind of hurts to put into words. Without recognizing it, my priorities slowly shifted from being a devoted Christian, a good wife, and a dedicated student, to making sure that I was caught up with all my TV shows, all in the name of "I need a break."
Yes, we all need a break sometimes, but at what cost? I began to realize that I didn't deserve all the breaks I was allowing myself. My life started to become cluttered and unorganized because I wasn't taking care of my responsibilities. School work began to get finished at the last minute, most of the time late at night, compromising my time to spend with my husband. Watching last night's TV shows became more important then delving into the word of God. No wonder my life is starting to feel a little out of whack. We all can drift into the trap of escaping our realities, and it can happen so easily. I am hoping that by putting this confession into words, it will help to hold me accountable. The last couple days I have been thinking of what it will be like when Baby Hawk gets here, and I know that I don't want my days to so full of the trivial to where I miss out on what's really important, the daily miracles of God. The next time I give myself a break, I want it to be because I've earned it and not because I think I deserve it.
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